Still here!

I'm back after a longer than expected absence from the blog. Thanks to everyone for the words of wisdom and advice about whether or not I should get back into B4L even though the whole 12 week challenge thing has fallen in a heap somewhat.

I have decided that consistancy is what matters for me as far as my health goes and that has been my downfall over the last few weeks. Yes, I have had some shit to deal with (the death of a friend) and am trying to cope with the return of ttom (yep that just happened again too!) but I have about four more weeks where I can knuckle down and try to get my focus back. So I am treating the end of this "challenge" as a habit breaker and habit maker. I have fallen into some bad habits and need to focus to get back on track.

Maybe "challenges" are not what I need right now. Sure, it's a great way to get to where I want to go quickly (when I focus) but is it sustainable?? So what am I going to do for the next four weeks and beyond?? I am going to go back to what I know works for me and track points/calories and exercise 3-4 times a week. Planning, perseverance, and consistancy. I am not going to focus on achieving a certain weight loss goal by a certain time. I just know that I would like to have an ultimate goal of reaching 75kgs in the not too distant future and challenge myself along the way by competing in fun runs and triathlons.

I still firmly believe that if you live like the person you want to become you will get there faster.

Sunday is my triathlon- for which I have not trainied enough... the old me would take that as an excuse not to compete but THIS me, the HEALTHY me says that it is a fantastic opportunity to get some exercise and do something I thought I would never be able to do. I am competing to finish- not to win. This is not a competition between me and other people. This is a contest of my own mind. Sunday is going to get me out of my slump. I can tell!!

I bought a new bike for the occasion and I am so keen to get out there and have a go.

My holiday was so lovely- just what I needed. I spent a lot of time soaking up the sun at the beach and even got in a training swim and a personal training session at the gym! Yay!

I am changing the name of this blog to "12 weeks is only the beginning" to mark my commitment to the long term journey that is going to get me to goal.

Tomorrow I am going out to buy a special super gorgeous journal to use as a tracker..

Thanks for hanging in there with me. Sorry if I have disappointed any of you by my lousy attempt at body for life!!

MWA

xox